The question I ask myself every single day. That’s what I always ask myself while I am on my getting ready to sleep. There are a few instances where the question hits me harder than usual. I can recall three separate events where it left an impact till this very day.
2013. By far the most memorable year of my life. Be it the good and the bad, the sweet and the bitter, all that happened this year was extremely hard to forget. I’ve met some really wonderful people but sadly none of them are a part of my life. It’s a shame how things turned out actually. This was also the year I lost my best friend. So then it comes back to me one night, what’s next? It was a year full of knowledge and experience but to sum it all up, it was a soul bond that backfired.
2015. This was the year my life defied all odds, this was the year where I rewrote my own fate. I wouldn’t want to talk about the year if anybody asked me. Actually I did not get a chance to ask “what’s next?”, it just flipped to the next page of the book automatically. To sum it up, I should’ve died in 2015.
2018. Have you ever felt that you do not deserve anything? Especially after all the mistakes you made in your youth? That’s exactly how I am feeling at the moment. I am blessed with a wonderful & beautiful partner, a friend that I could rely on and a family that always have my back. It seems too good to be true though, like whatever that is happening seems like a dream. So, what’s next? I intend to close all the books I did not get to close, to find closure basically.
I believe that if one is not at ease, the negative energy will find its way to another person that is in the same shoes as you. In this world, you are never going through your problems alone.